NinjaEmeritus

I want to sleep To forget I don't want to live with so much anger so much hate and so much sadness. I want to leave to somewhere new without this curse this addiction, without you without love without joy, without you. The most addicting most uplifting most depressing drug, without you. Because I can live with loved ones lost and daily stress but I can not live without you. The days would pass. The weeks would turn. The years would go. Things would die, things would grow But life would be empty and dry, without you. I will climb the highest heights and I will know extacy only to drop into despair. All over you.

With the knowledge that I have gained I am better able to understand that which has happened and can recount that which has happened in better detail. However, I never seem to know enough about my current situation in order to make the correct decisions. And again after everything has passed and more is gained it becomes aware to me what I have done wrong and what I should have done. I live my life walking into a black abyss with nothing but a candle at my back. I never halt my journey though no matter how many times I stub my toe or run into something sharp. I live with my inadequacies and try to change myself with every step in order to pos